sooo much going on!!

There is sooo very much going on since I last published a blog posting. We gave up on that credit repair company because it is nothing more than a big scam. We were going to move back to Florida but decided that Texas would be a better move. my husband left Weds night and arrived in Texas Friday night. He is staying with my cousin for right now. He has many job leads and a few offers already in works. Just waiting to see which one is the best for him and to finish with the interviews. I have had some problems with a neighbor and her kids and of course misery loves company so two other neighbors jumped in on it and it is all just ridiculous. All because she couldn't be an adult about something. I have  been battling the loneliness that goes along with not having any family or many friends in this part of the state. I have been counting down the days until I can get out of here. It is 32 now. I cannot wait to go! At least I have my daughter here for now. It is looking as though she is going to have to go back to my moms to start school until we move. It will only be about three weeks from when she starts school to when we leave for Texas. Last night I watched a movie with her and two of her friends and she was so exhausted that she fell asleep! She begged me to get that movie! I thought that Paranormal Entity 3 was horrible. The hype was more than the movie was worth! Finding that more often than I would like to. Today she went with her friends to the movies and it as nice and quiet for about 5 hours! Then they all came back! UGH!! I got to catch up through text with a friend or two but it is no comparison to having your husband whom you love more than you ever thought possible by your side. I miss him so stinking much! The only solice I have is that he isn't here so he can start to build a better life for us. He is a good man and I would defend that statement to death. I am just really having a hard time with him gone. I do not know what I will do if my daughter has to go to my moms for school. I am dreading that but it seems like what is going to happen. I have been breaking out in hives and Benadryl knocks me on  my butt and I am only taking a quarter of a dose at a time. I do not know if it is from am allergic reaction or if it is stress but either way it is annoying. I am very tired because I do not sleep well when my hubby is not here and well because I am tired and when I a tired I am crabby and I start gripping at the kids and it is not real nice but it is what it is!! Off to make dinner now more soon!!

Just an update on what is going on in my life!

Oh wow where to begin?? Well hubby and I are working with a credit repair service so that we can by the end of September look to be able to buy a house. This makes me very happy! We have 2 litters of puppies we (well I) was fostering. Any idea hat it is like to not have a puppy for over 4 years and then have 11 in one day? I got 8 puppies adopted in the first 3 days and I still have two in my home. 1 is definitely going to a new home by the end of the day tomorrow! I am stuck with another till the family from Connecticut comes to get her. I am not happy about this but what can you do. She belongs with them. I could see it when they met her. She was sick that day and well just not in good enough shape to make the 5 hour ride to her new home but they think she is perfect for them and well I agree. The poor kids left in tears because they could not take her that day. I felt horrible! She was better by the next day and i think she got into something that she shouldn't have but that happens with puppies. I am also getting  crash course in the reminder that any change can cause a puppy to have diarrhea! Just some one new coming to see them can make then have an issue! I guess it is the excitement. This coming week my father in law has all of his daughters coming to NJ for a family reunion. i am nervous and excited as well. I am nervous because of the drama between his youngest and my mother in law. They never have anything nice to say to or about each other and I guess no one ever taught them that if you cant say anything nice don't say anything at all. It is a ridiculous feud and it is so old now that it has reached the point of being stupid. I hate to say it but in this case they both need to suck it up and deal. Stop with the petty comments and taunts and just be adults. You both love the same man and it kills him that the two of you act like this. I am hoping that I get along with the other two daughters but if their sister has anything to do with it well then it wont happen. the youngest does not like me. I do not know why when all I have ever been is nice and even helped move her from one apartment to another when I wasn't supposed to be walking around very much on my knee. But it is what it is. I have not been to Hershey Park in almost 20 years and cant wait to go! I am not super excited about going to Wildwood. I love the ocean but HATE the sand! I am a little worried about my daughter and the beach as she does not do too well in the heat and her meds make her burn a lot easier than she normally would. I am hoping that she meets her cousins and gets along well with them but just in case she may bring a friend with her to both events.  I am a little worried about the grandkids picture day. My daughter is not a very happy kid when it comes to pictures! But I am again sure everything will be fine. I am going to be disappointed at Hersey Park when I have to pick and choose what rides I can on because I cannot ride the ones that put a lot of pressure on your abdomen :( stupid diverticulosis!! I hate it but knock on wood I have not had any recent issues and I have been sticking to the few things I am allowed to eat so that I avoid the issues and quite possible death from rupturing my colon again. I am tired of the same foods but I would rather be tired of them and be OK than to be sick and in the hospital. Well will update during the week to let you all know how it went!
I also hope that is my mother in law reads this that she does not take offense to my concerns and opinions on her feud with her step daughter. This is one place I don't censor my thoughts. Well not too much anyway. I don't mean any offense it is just my opinion!!

new oppertunity

So last night I joined Odesk.com. I have my profile up and have taken a few of the aptitude tests and passed them all so far. I did very well on the blog and web writing test! I was very proud of myself that apparently I know how to write and promote a blog, yet my blog rating is sooo low! This is very frustrating to me. I am hoping to get that rating up soon!! I have been having issues with my paid blogs as well and if that does not clear up I am not going to be doing them any more. That means that all my blogs would be mine and not something that I am doing for an advertiser. Well so be it! I am making a little money here and there dong it and I need more. I am still doing market research and making money here and there doing that too. I hope that Odesk works out for me and that I can start to make more money on there and that I can feel like I am contributing more. My friend works through there and loves it. I just am having a hard time finding a job on there because I have no logged work hours yet and no feedback. It is frustrating!! Just wish me luck that I get something soon!!

Ugh almost 2 months already

Sooo much has been going on. My daughter went into the hospital for a medication change. She realized her meds weren't working and asked us to go in. AWESOME! She picked up n a problem and took care of it way to go kiddo!! Shortly there after hubby ended up in patient with a bad reaction to a the antidepressant he was put on (finally). They changed his meds and he is doing really well now. On to me :( I have to change from my online school to a traditional school. I have my application at Rutgers almost complete. I am not looking forward to this but it is what I need to do. I will be very behind if I continue to stay with University of Phoenix. This stinks! I do not like being in a classroom but it is needed :( So wish me luck that things keep getting better because there is one issue going on in my life that I cannot post here. It is not something that I can talk about openly at this time but please send prayers and good thoughts our way as we need them right now. Anyone who does this I really appreciate it. I am worried but also know that however it turns out that it is what is supposed to happen whether I like it or not. On a good note though we are back to working on cars again! SO remember if you need car repairs call me!! No being stuck sitting in a shop all day! We come to you and you can stay in the comfort of your own home or you can stay at work and not have to miss that time! Keep us in mind!!

What a beautiful day!!

today is a beautiful day!! too bad i am spending it across the street in my neighbors house with my animals :( the crazy upstairs neighbor ( I have two up there. One is cool one is crazy with a capitol K!) she seems to think she is infested with bedbugs! The one guy who lives next door used to work as an exterminator and went up and checked her apartment. Result? NO BUGS! Here is something to know about bedbugs: they will not survive if you are clean and keep your house clean. they are opportunistic and yes you can get them if you are clean but they are much easier to get rid of. Over the counter pesticide and a vacuum. Well she is still convinced that there are bugs there. So our lovely landlord called for the exterminator. no big deal hes coming out at 6 so Mike can leave work early that day and I will have somewhere to go and help with our animals (pair of love birds, his snake, and our 2 dogs) right? WRONG!! the crazy lady made a big stink that her daughter will be at work and she will have no where to go. Well uhm hmmmm not our problem work it out. So the landlord changed it to today in the morning. not usually a big deal but one of the guys Mike works with had cataract surgery about 3 weeks ago and woke up Saturday morning and couldn't see out of one if his eyes. So now it is just Mike, ken and the owner who's name is also Mike. please say a prayer that Jose regains his vision and can go back to doing what he loves. He is 73 years old and you would never believe it! Anyway back to the crazy lady an her nonexistent bugs! So he changed it and with Jose being out f work they are short staffed and there is no way Mike can be here to throw the animals in the car and we can at least sit in the car or drive somewhere while they are doing their thing. NOOOOO of course not. Thankfully my awesome neighbor said bring them all over here and hangout. She is not even home she has dialysis three times a week on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday and here she is opening her home to me and my menagerie! what a good heart she has! There is something to be said about a woman who is almost completely blind who has never met my dogs and cant stand snakes who says bring them. She has had a bird before and knew what that would be lol. Some one like Denise gives me faith that there is still good left in the world and that it hasn't been all used up or put out! I do believe that god works in mysterious ways and I feel like he put this woman in my life for a reason. Her son has some behavioral problems yet is in love Macie and will do just abut anything for her even if it means behaving for his mom. Speaking of Macie I am so excited for her! She is going to her first High School dance this coming Friday night! Her boyfriend, Shane, is so excited to take her and introduce her to his friends. She is kind of nervous because he lives down here by me and she does not know a lot of the kids that go to that school. I told her that is good because they don't know you they have absolutely nothing to judge you on except what you give them to on Friday night! What a perfect opportunity to impress people with who you are instead of what others believe you to be! Ii do feel bad she is going to this dance on crutches because of the broken toe. She was complaining about the pain this morning when she was getting out of bed :( poor kid. She told me the other day she misses bowling and riding her skateboard and being able to walk to the park that is a few blocks away from us. I feel bad but she just cant take the chance of walking on it or bowling or riding her skateboard or anything that puts any pressure or full weight on her toe :(  She is supposed to have an appointment on Friday and I called to confirm it today and well they don't have it in the system. So now I don't know what is going on. Either way shes not going to school Friday because she has a late appointment on Thursday night that will not put her even close to home until about 10 pm. There is no way she will be able to be up and ready to get on the bus at 7:20 in the morning after getting home that late. I hope they still have the appointment even though it is not in the system. She has been waiting on this one since October. It is the one that makes it possible for her to get her meds in a timely manner. i am really annoyed right now that they are pulling this again with her but what can you do? Back to today. At 1pm I can return home and after I get the animals settled I think I am going t try to take the boys for a nice long walk. Well as long as they will behave that is. If not who knows when we will have 70 in March again?!?! Hope you all have a great day even with all this going on I am determined to have a great day! I even got to put on a big roast with fresh carrots, peppers, onions, and potatoes in the crock pot before I had to get out of the house. It's gonna be a good day and night ;)

Not many options

Contribution by Michale Greer

There are a few options for Dish in my neighborhood and I’m thinking about getting it. I’ve never really been that into TV before but I honestly need something to help me relax after a hard day at work. I think it’s really great that some people are able to leave the office and totally turn it ‘off’ in their brains but I’m just not one of those people and I really need to find a way to unwind. I think it’s amazing there are so many different avenues to go down when it comes to work but for me it’s always been all about the corporate ladder. I love being part of a team and being rewarded with raises and promotions and I’ve been striving for that corner office ever since I graduated college. I think it’s great to have dreams and creativity but in my opinion if it’s not being recognized what’s the point? Who would think that after a few years I would be able to really make a mark.

hmmmm

So it has been one of those time periods.... Nothing too bad just a lot of little things that seem to keep piling up. My sister had surgery on her foot/ankle about 2 1/2 weeks ago and I hate seeing her in pain like that. She is super sensitive to the pain meds and well they made her a little sick at first and never last long enough for her to even get some sleep. She doesn't like to take them and that does not help her very much either. I really feel bad that there is nothing we can do to ease her pain. Two weeks ago my daughter had to go in for a medication change. Her age and the side affects and the withdrawal symptoms from the last medication made it much safer to do in an inpatient setting. Most people would look at any inpatient admittance as a negative event. We are not. Granted she was feeling like she did not want to live but rather than acting on those feelings she talked to us and told us she felt like it was the medication not working rather than a true want to die. She struggles with suicidal thoughts and feelings and the medication not working properly for her lets more of those thoughts and ideas into her mind. Pretty scary as a parent but I can only imagine how it was for her. She did not act on those thoughts and urges but came to us and got the help she needed. I am so proud of her for that. Two years ago when these things really surfaced with her she would not have come to us. She would have acted on the thoughts. Maybe not suicide but other self destructive and self injurious behavior. She has come so far and we just cant tell her how proud we are of her enough. The problem with this whole thing though came in while she was in the hospital. The day before she was discharged some of the girls were goofing around and pushing each other around on couches as if the couches were sleds. Now because this is a psychiatric facility the couches are weighted and extremely heavy to prevent them being used by out of control patients as a weapon. Well the girl doing the pushing went askew and accidentally rammed the couch into my daughter's foot. It pushed her toes backwards. She told the staff member who was supposed to be supervising the girls. He did nothing about it. A little while later she went to him again about the pain. He very loudly (so all could hear him) told her that he has never in his life heard someone complain and whine so much about a stubbed toe. To go get some Tylenol from the nurse and go lay in her bed and they would get her some ice if she really wanted it. There was never a notation in her chart made of the incident. She called me a little while later and told me her toe was broken. I told her to get off of it and rest it and see how it felt in the morning. I know how bad a toe can hurt and felt bad but what could I do about it? The next day we picked her up for her discharge and I noticed she was limping pretty badly. She slid her foot out of her shoe and yes the toe was bruised and a little swollen but I did not see the underside of it. When we left we took her to  buffet for lunch which meant walking around. We then went to WalMart to get an oil change and her prescription filled. Yes I had her walking around WalMart with me. One we finally got her home she asked if she could go grab some coffee (or hot chocolate) with her friends and she would come right back. We said OK and when she wet to go get ready she practically crawled up the stairs. She slid down the stairs on her rear when she was coming back down and I made her sit and take off her shoe and sock and let me look at her toes and foot. I was soooo angry!! The whole side and bottom of her toe was almost black! The whole toe and at least half of her foot was swollen. I told her to call her friends and tell them she couldn't go with them she was going to the ER. Sure enough she was right the day before when she told me it was broken! I feel horrible I made her walk around on it. I felt even worse on Thursday when we went to the orthopedic specialist and found out that the bone is broken completely through and that if it shifts it will require surgery to fix. The brake is completely through the growth plate as well. Granted she is 14 and 6ft or slightly over and chances are her feet are done growing but what if they are not? The doctor feels I should call a lawyer and as do most of the people I have talked to. Every one feels there ia a case for negligence on the part of the psych hospital for not getting her checked out and for the lack of supervision that led to the injury. I am torn on this. If there is no lasting injury and she heals fine than what is the point? However what if it does not heal properly and she needs surgery and there are lasting issues? I do not want to wait to call a lawyer if it is too late but I also know that accidents happen. I would have made the same call not to take her to the ER that night. However I would not have embarrassed her and treated her like she was a pin in the butt. When every staff member I spoke to there said she was a laid back go with the flow and do what she needed to do to get home once her medication was changed type of patient, for her to go to someone and complain two or three times and get treated like that makes me more angry than the injury does! she is upset she is not allowed to do anything for the next six weeks or fear of displacing the broken section of the bone which can happen if she bangs it or even walks on it :( On to the next topic...  My friends father passed away recently. He had been fighting cancer for quite a while and his wife had just passed a few months ago. My friend, Eric, is a trooper and even had a few kind words and well wishes to offer my daughter in the midst of his own sorrow and mourning. I cannot even begin to pretend to know how horrible it has to be to loose a parent. However, I can understand and I feel horrible that he and his family is going through this. The memorial services are tomorrow and well this one will be hard. The other day a friends grandmother passed away. He was struggling for a short while and well just couldn't fight any more. My heart goes out to her family as well. I do know the pain of loosing a grandparent. I miss my grandmother so much sometimes and it comes out of nowhere. I do not think you ever real heal from loss it just gets easier to deal with. Next... I cant wallow in pain and sorrow for long :) While tomorrow is a sad day it is also a good day for me. I will see many of my Friend's tomorrow and while it is death that brings us together it is still chance to spend some time with people I don't get to see very often. Most of my friends have families and kids of their own now so it makes finding time to get together harder than ever. I think it is a sign of getting old when the people you spent everyday with you now really only get to see at weddings and funerals. I miss just being able to pick up the phone and say Hey you home? You going anywhere? and then following that up with I will be there in 10 mins. I have pizza and soda... getting there and spending the whole night playing monopoly or rummy or just sitting around and talking about everything or nothing at all. Even the crazy conversations "What was that? The dog? no the garbage. no my dad fell out of bed. What the dog fell out of bed no the garbage. the garbage fell out of bed? Nooooo the dog knocked over the garbage and my dad fell out of bed" or however it went. Sitting back and watching your little sister snort crushed smarties 20 years before we knew that this way of sugar intake could actually make you high. then as we got older it was sitting around and crying over this boy or that one and the arguments that went on because one friend was no dating the others ex boyfriend or some other crap and well you always felt stuck in the middle because you love them all. I miss those days but at the same time am glad they are gone. just about our whole group of friends is married with children now and hose that aren't I'm sure are not far behind!
I just want to bring something up here. I believe in God and I believe that Jesus Christ is my saviour and died for my sins and for my salvation. If I post about my beliefs and post on my facebook wall bible quotes or whatever I feel like posting I am not asking you to take on my beliefs as your own (not opposed if you want to) I just ask that you respect by beliefs as I respect yours. I may not agree with them but I respect them just as I would expect you to respect mine.
Well I have rambled enough have a great day or night!
Well I guess I have rambled on long enough hope you all have great days and nights!